Feeling: uninspired and tired
We’ve been trying to do a lot of things the last 2 weeks since the husband came back from his “travels”. It’s been a rather harrowing week for me having to deal with my growing tummy while he’s been away and the past week knowing that he’s not going to go anywhere for a while has really been quite a relief!
We also had our baby scan the past Monday and the husband was going to accompany me to the gynae’s, so I decided to take a little break from exposing all the little details of my life to just enjoy his company, just the 2 of us while the bub was in school and NOT post for the week.
But back to reality now, and I’m gonna settle down and admit something that has been a difficult decision to come to.
I think I’m going to abandon my blog…
It’s getting tougher and tougher now to find the energy to maintain the blog (considering how little I’m doing about it as it is). It actually doesn’t take me much time to randomly spout something about the week or about life and the kids, if I were to be truly honest. But I don’t find an enjoyment in dispulging my life as much anymore.
I have been writing in here for close to 3 years now (since the conception of my #1 bub) and as I approach the arrival of my second, I find that I would prefer to keep things private and perhaps share things only with people who are already connected with me on social media.
I already to a great deal of uploading there, but perhaps not as much of the emotional deluge gets uploaded there, thanks to connections with certain people that I’m lazy to
ostracize categorize into “groups” that will eventually be excluded from all of my posts.
I know I posted just weeks ago that I’m glad for this outlet to talk about certain aspects of my life, to pen down some quotes and the gists of conversations that have passed, but somehow, there is no satisfaction in knowing that I am obliged to do so just to keep this blog alive.
It’s not as if I have a great readership.
It’s not as if I have a huge following…
I’d rather much keep to myself and my own…
So with a heavy heart, this will likely be my last post.
But who knows, if the Spirit prompts, or I have need for an outlet again, let’s hope that the domain will still be open for me to come back and resurrect this little project of mine.
In the meantime, I wish you all Godspeed and care in all that you do.
Thank you for following me, if you have been at all.